Finding love… (was "The Love of My Life")

I know this is going to make my popularity ratings plummet, but hey…I’m in love! That’s him right there…Dr Oscar B, the most beautiful man in the world, inside, ouside, and all around stellar human being.

It wasn’t too long ago that I met Oscar. In fact, we were at the Asia Pacific AIDS Conference held in Manila in October. It would probably best be described as love at first sight for the both of us. In fact, when we first saw one another, we were so shy we didn’t even dare look one another in the eye. All I could think was, “Wow, I have to meet this man before the end of the conference.” We soon ran into one another at the opening ceremony later that evening, and started talking. Turns out we both weren’t even certain if the other was gay in the first place. Well, all our fears and insecurities were wildly misplaced – and for the rest of the week, we were walking around the conference in a hazy bliss.

What’s special about Oscar? For starters, he’s the sexiest man I’ve ever met…his swarthy good looks, the way he moves, the way he smiles…heck, the way he smells – it makes my skin tingle, sends little waves of electricity down my back whenever he touches me. He’s incredibly expressive, especially when he’s speaking in his native Spanish, or adopted French, and his eyes speak volumes. Oscar’s Colombian, you see, and you probably already know all about these Latin men =) Fiery, passionate, suave – you name it, he’s got it.

Add to this potent mix a brilliant mind and a heart of gold, and you have a person who is one in a million. Oscar currently works for Medecins Sans Frontieres (Doctors without Borders) in Cambodia. But most of all, I find in Oscar a deeper connection, a peaceful spirit, and someone who resonates with me on a wavelength unlike anyone else. It’s almost as though we don’t have to explain things to one another – we simply understand where the other is coming from. Even when we disagree, we are still able to see things from the other’s perspective.

For the first time in a long time, I know love, I know how it is to be loved, and I know how powerful it is to love someone. My life has changed radically – it’s as though focus has shifted. I have more reason to do what I do, I feel greater motivation, stonger resolution to do good, create good energy, contribute to those around me, because I feel love in my heart. At a juncture when I was starting to get cynical, wondering if I would ever meet anyone who could stomach me, if anyone would ever have the strength of character to impress me, if anyone out there shared the same values and principles and bad habits…along came Oscar.

So! That’s what’s been keeping me occupied for the last couple of months. I’ve also just returned from a 2 week trip to Italy (Rome/Florence/Venice) with mother and my sister Michelle. FABULOUS. Will keep you updated when the photos are developed and scanned.

Apologies if all this gushing turns your stomach. Get over it. This cynical, conceited, intransigent, recalcitrant little shit (as some of you have kindly emailed me) is human too. Later masturbators. Oh yeah, Happy Holidays!